I always have trouble accepting the truth.

Ayyee.

I can’t accept anything. It’s like denial, but oh so much worse.

I’ve got to wake up and realize that

  • Not everyone will want to be my friend
  • I won’t be compatible with everyone
  • Some people will hate me
  • Most people won’t tolerate me
  • The past was real
  • The future is unpredictable
  • The present is an unwanted gift
  • You can’t have everything you want
  • Truth is unavoidable
  • Hearts break
  • The one you love won’t always be the one that loves you back

It feels like I’m never going to understand, and in truth, I probably won’t. But I just hope that I’ll at least be able to wake up from this insomnia. Realization may never dawn, but awakenings can still happen.